Hey Guys!! I know it has been a while, but I have been going through the motions the past couple of months and I am pulling out of it through lots of prayer and pep talks with myself (yes, I talk to myself). Well guess what? Self told self that fear was creeping back into my life and plotting a takeover. So it’s time to BOSS UP!
For as long as I can remember fear and anxiety have been a thing in my life. I was always scared of the first day of school (every single year though!). I used to be scared every time I started a new job because it reminded me of the first day of school. I used to be scared to speak in front of guys because I was scared to mess things up. When I first moved into my house I used to be scared of staying there alone. I was always scared to meet new people. I hated being the new girl. I was just scared of everything and I gave myself major anxiety over the simplest things. A lot of it had to do with me wanting everyone to like me because… lack of self esteem.
Luckily, I don’t have any of those fears anymore because gaining confidence in myself and loving myself got rid of most of them. Now when I walk into new and unfamiliar situations I am fully aware of how amazing I am and what I bring to the table. Worrying about whether people like me is a thing of the past because I simply have better sh*t to worry about. Everything ain’t for everybody.
Now my fears come from challenging myself to move out of my comfort zone so that I can become a better version of me. Lately, a few members of my soul family have been challenging me to step out of my comfort zone and I started worrying about what was going to happen once I take that first step outside of it. I then began feeling stuck and stagnant because I was overthinking it all instead of taking action. To me, this is one of the worst feelings in the world because it’s accompanied by confusion and sadness. Who has time for that when you want to be great?
I’ve never seen any life transformation that didn’t begin with the person in question finally getting sick of their own bullsh*t. -Elizabeth Gilbert
During this talk with self I realized that I have been stuck in my routine and comfort. However, I was starting to become unhappy with my comfort. That’s when you know it’s time to switch things up. After months of overthinking and chillin’ in my comfort zone I decided my friends were right. It was time to challenge myself. It was time to take the next step in my career and stand firm in the direction in which I wanted to go.
She remembered who she was and the game changed. -Lalah Deliah
The first thing that I decided to do was get over my fear of pitching to other brands. It’s one thing to have my own blog and write however I feel like, but it’s another thing to write for someone else without losing my voice. But I did it. I wrote for one of my favorite brands and websites Black Girl In Om. It was important for me to pitch to this brand because this is one of the brands that helped me solidify my decision to expand my brand to include mental health.
From the moment I sent the pitch to them until the moment I sent the final edit of the blog, my anxiety level was on 100. BUT, that level of anxiety that stemmed from my fear of not being good enough to a bigger audience, was what made me push myself to get it done. I still have a lot more to do and I am working on a lot more behind the scenes but it will take time. I had to learn to be patient with myself and do the work until I start making the impact that I want to make.
Moral of the Story: F*ck your fears! The only way to keep bossin’ up is to push yourself to step out of your comfort zones. Keep challenging yourself. STOP talking yourself out of sh*t. STOP comparing yourself to others. Everything in God’s time. Keep people around you that push you in the right direction and inspire you to do better. Anybody that doesn’t help you to become a better person is a distraction. You know what to do with distractions, right?
Until next time…
P.S.S. I am traveling for my birthday so there will be a travel post soon!