“In God’s Time, Not Mine” has become my daily mantra. It is something that I often have to remind myself.
When I was growing up, all my friends were in extracurricular activities, such as dance and sports, and I always felt like I did not have a talent or a hobby. I didn’t shine in school either because I felt like I was not as smart or as outgoing as others. I barely spoke in class, even if I didn’t understand something. Therefore, I was not a straight “A” student either. I felt like I was an empty shell.
Instead of me participating in after school activities, I went on a job interview when I was 13 and started working as soon as I turned 14 (legal working age). I have been working ever since. I really did not have time to explore hobbies or figure out my talents, I was more concerned with trying to help my mother support our household.
Let’s fast forward to a few years ago at the age of 32, I finally found my hobby of traveling. Traveling then lead me to my talent (gift) of writing. I decide to start blogging but it was difficult at first. I started my blog twice. The first time I found it so difficult that I gave up and deleted the whole thing. I tried again and now two years later I am still successfully running it and writing for other publications.
When I first started blogging, I researched the blog process, how to grow an audience, and how to build a brand. I started following other bloggers, influencers, and entrepreneurs and then I began realizing that most of the people I was learning from were so much younger than I was. Not only were they younger, they were doing amazing for themselves. These young Kings and Queens were inspiring me to do better and to work harder.
However, I also started thinking I wish I had my life together at their age. I started questioning how much better I would be if I started when I was younger and how much further I would be if I started blogging at their age. I then started questioning if I was too old to be creating a website and to start building a brand.
This is when I would start saying my mantra to myself: Gods time, not mine. God, I am ready when you are.
Everything happens for a reason. I had to remind myself that a delay definitely does not mean the answer is NO. Just because I am older does not mean that I will not be successful. I had to force myself to stop comparing my life to others. I had to stop worrying about the amount of followers I had and remind myself, that if I only heal one person with my words, that is enough.
Don’t lose yourself in others trying to find your own reflection. -Olivia Jade
Do not get comparison and jealousy confused. I was comparing myself to these younger influencers that were prospering but I was not jealous of their success. I understand that everyone has their own lane. There is plenty of time to create my own lane as long as I don’t doubt myself and question the gift that God has given me.
I am grateful for the ability to inspire others no matter how big or small my following is. As I check myself, hopefully some of you are getting checked too. Please believe that all things will work for your highest good if you believe. No matter how old you are or how long it takes, keep working hard. It will pay off. I promise!
Remember the daily mantra: In God’s Time, Not Mine!
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